MY BIRTHDAY

Oh, where do I began, It was really a wonderful and blessed Birthday. My hubby blown me with flowers and cake delivery to my office. When my colleagues ask me what my kids bought for me, I say they are still small. Only a kiss. I wasn’t expecting anything till I reach their school to fetch them. They chase their frens and make them wish me “HAPPY BIRTHDAY”. It’s a kind of different gift. Speechless, filled with happiness. We had dinner outside, taking one day break from kitchen. After the celebration, I went to sleep earlier than them cause too tired of being happy the whole day.

Usually when I got monthly menstrual, I will put the mattress down and sleep. My eyes are closed but not sleeping. That’s when I heard my two kids whispering to each other saying “amma sleep already. Let’s kiss her and say we love her”. So sweet. Once they done, they switch off the light.

This is the best part. Once they off the light they could not see clearly to get on the bed. The first foot stepped on my head to climb on the bed is Rageshvarma(Anna). Second is Sevvelsharmaah (Thambi). My eyes popped but I didn’t shout. Due to sweetest birthday treat, I have to hold the pain and sleep like nothing happen. The next morning when I woke up, first thing came to my mind is how heavy was the last gift.

I LOVE MY FAMILY.

MY LOVE

He was a total stranger when we got engaged on 7th December 2002. My mom says, she already check his details and background. No problem with him, and I will live a happy (Happy means secure) life with him. Because he is government staff. JUST LIKE IN MOVIES.

The following week, he call for a date on 12th December 2002 and we went for a movie “April Mathathil”. The movie sucks. Worse is I have no feeling towards him. When he tried to hold my hand, I say “I DON’T LIKE. DON’T EVER TRY TAT AGAIN”. Thank god he didn’t get mad.

When I was about to leave, he bought me grapes and anklet. He wanted to drop me at home, but I say I only need a cab to get home. I was damn rude to him. He stopped a cab, open the door and say “take care. Once u reach home, call me”. Hearing his soft advice, caring and smile, I guess cupid struck my heart. I tell myself I should give him space to get close to me.

The following week, on 19th December 2002 I called up for a date. That’s when I know him more closer and fall in love. I know it’s just one day. But in one day time, I get to know many things about him. The best part, he ask me to pay for what I ate, and he will pay his own. LOL. Couldn’t guess what was in his mind. But I tell him, its my treat. I will pay for him too. I allow him to send me home, hold my hand and kiss me. THE MEMORY STILL FRESH IN MY MIND. Till we get married, I spend for every going out expenses. Guys usually say gals will make man’s wallet empty. Just to prove to him, it’s not true in my matter.

10 years of marriage, we have secured (Now secured means Happy) life because we share everything. Ohhh, Of course we do fight. Part of life. The last fight was when I had my hairdo, he say u look damn ugly when others say I look pretty and younger. I throw scoop ladle at him. DASHYAT RIGHT !!!! HA HA HA

14th February 2003 is our 1st Valentine.
14th February 2012 is our 10th Valentine.

Coming Back ?

Is she really coming back ? I like her so much cause of her puntuality on set and she really can act.

Bride to be Genelia

Riteish Deshmukh and Genelia D'Souza's sangeet, at a Bandra hotel. , Bride-to-be Genelia

Stop Child Sex Trafficking

Let the pictures do the talking.

Actor Turned Actress

No much work, so vethiyah inthe veleh pathen.. LOL

My All-Time Favourite


Vikram - Dhool & Dhill
Surya - Kaakha Kaakha & Ghajini
Vijay – Thirumalai & Sivakasi
Vadivelu - Pattali & Chandramukhi
Sathanam - Boss Engiren Bhaskaran & Vaanam
Vivek – Dum Dum Dum & Thenkasi Pattanam

Bhogi Pongal

Bhogi is a festival celebrated on first day of Pongal. On bhogi, people clean their house and all the waste and unwanted things are set on fire. Lets burn unwanted with minimum quantity. Have awareness to save the Earth. Can you imagine some people will take the opportunity to burn rubbish, broken furniture and rubber tyres which emits lot of smoke which affects the environment. I’m not against Bhogi. But at the same time, I say NO to bhogi every year.
On the day of Bhogi I would like to share an interesting article which I came across few years ago. It’s not related to Bhogi or pongal but take it as general knowledge to save the EARTH.

Millions of people die each day on this planet. there is one thing that all funerals have in common: the alarming amount of wood used in the pyres or the coffins. When the body is burnt along with kilos of wood and embalming fluids, an astonishing amount of carbon dioxide, sulfur dioxide and acids are produced, making the carbon footprint bigger and darker.

Green burial is a process wherein a body is returned to the soil in its most natural form sans any coffin or embalming agents. Manufacturing coffins requires cutting down of a large number of trees and the embalming fluids seep into the soil and pollute the water thus disturbing the ecosystem. The body may at the most be wrapped in a bio-degradable material like a sheet or a shroud.

A green cemetery is a place where tombstones are replaced by trees and a forest is born, complete with wildlife, birds and flowers. Nature takes it own course and your loved ones’ body is extended towards a noble cause making them immortal. Since a large chunk of forest area has been destroyed by human encroachment and consumption, green cemeteries come as a welcome change as they create miniature forest ecosystems within the cities and detoxify the atmosphere. The forest needs no maintenance or expense as it thrives on a soil made fertile by decaying organic matter.

It is understandable and obviously expected that after years of following conventional cremation and burial rites; some may not be open this tradition breaking idea. However, just as we are coming to accept organ donation, this concept too, is nothing out of the blue. In the former case, we are helping a human being while in the latter, we are helping nature. The cause is as noble, if not more, that the act of donating organs of your loved ones after their demise. Just like the donated organs are mentioned in the deceased’s will, so can the willingness to undergo a Green Burial. Choosing a Green Burial and discussing it with your family saves your loved ones from a lot of difficulties and hassles of making expensive and time-consuming arrangements for your last rites in their hour of grief. Life may often not give us an opportunity to prove our worth, but death certainly does! It is just a matter of “will”…

I’m not sure if they have such burial in Malaysia, but if they do, I will never hesitate to go for it. Because EDWARD ABBEY Says "One's death should mean something."

2012

Last year "2011", I decided to follow flow of time for my life arrangements. Beginning of 2011 was good. But later, become the sour year. The pain and lost is unbearable. I wish, I could have been extra careful.

Now I welcome 2012 with proper plan and Firm lifestyle. Aiming to improve finances and Increase of healthy lifestyle.

All the while when a “NO” comes from me, I would be begged to compromise and sacrifice. It gives me a hesitation and hate when doing things I don’t agree or like. Always ended up in big arguments, dissatisfaction and frustration.

But now when I Say NO, I stick to it. I really mean it.

28 NOVEMBER 2011

I will never forget the date “ 28th November 2011. the day I suffered lost of my Baby girl. I was 22 week 5 days pregnant when I delivered her. Doctor told my hubby that they will call it a miscarriage if the baby born under 500gram. They would do nothing to save the child even if born alive. They made him sign the papers.

When the baby born, she cry… warded at NICU. 480 gram, still alive. But no support given. It really hurt me a lot. They ignored my pleas and say that the baby's chances of survival are low. It was "very difficult" to predict whether baby would live, die, be healthy or have disabilities later on in life. Because of this uncertainty, they recommends that parents, after a discussion with the healthcare, should have the final say in whether intensive care is given.

My hubby took me to NICU to see her for last time. She hold my finger. Its like she knew I’m there. I could not even call out her name which I choose before she BORN. SAKUNTALA. So painful even to utter her name. That moment I suffered seeing my baby, with the fact in my mind that the baby will not survive.

In the days and weeks, countless people told me “it will get easier.” Think positive. You still have two children. God loves her more. You are still young.

But, I still miss SAKUNTALA.

CAR

The feeling of driving for first time still fresh in me. I obtain my driving license on 1999. Due to few incidents I never drive. First time drive always get honked by passers, wrong parking, car went reverse when going hill, especially shopping complex, able to drive only after 12.00am till 4.30am. cause at that time hardly we see cars on road. LOL. So my trauma made me stop dreaming of having car.

But than, my colleagues changed my mind tat a women should know to drive to lessen burden for family. And having car is like having independent life. I thought that was true cause all the while I waste time waiting for my hubby to fetch me from work, than get my children from daycare. By the time I reach home, I’m too tired to do the cooking and do house chores. I searched and I got my Kancil “2nd hand” on 6th November 2007, an auto to have easy driving. The next day I drove without anyone’s company. So happy, flying high.

After few years, I found that the car still in good condition and I’m happy with my car. Did have a small corner in my heart to sell it, but remembering the feeling of FIRST TIME HAVING CAR, I tell myself tat I will get old along with my kancil. Sometimes, things don’t happen just like how we want it to be. On 5th August 2011, the car went missing. STOLEN!!!!!!!

Its been 2 months since the incident and now I’m driving second hand Kenari Year 2003. I still pick 2nd hand cause I have lots of commitment and hate long due debts. Many said that its better to add abit and get a new one. What ever the little amount they say its still a huge amount for me.. compare to RM 19,000 Used car with brand new Viva RM 38,000.. Of course people say I will need to take care of maintenance and service of used car more than a new car which wont have problem for coming 5 years. That is why I, myself very particular on picking second hand. Well all have been sorted but I STILL MISS MY KANCIL...