Monday, October 5, 2009

Sadness, Confusion, Hurt

There is time when things do not work out the way we wanted. I don’t know how to describe the feeling I’m going through now. Sadness, confusion, hurt. It is so hard to digest and comprehend things happened but I left with no option? I would love to carry on and just let it go by the way it happen. No point in getting it in more difficult situation. However, my heart is broken. I didn’t expect this. There is no choice given and the decision is firm enough to make me realize the meaning of it. Yes! Stay out of it. I understood well. What is going to happen next?

I tried to create a normal conversation but it sounds a little cold at the other end. I wonder if there is hope for healing a broken relation? Yes, I was angry. But why? isn’t it obvious that you were important to me. You didn't have to make critical remarks on me. It upset me deeply and I think I don’t deserve such words. You may highlight what you have done for me but I will never do the same to you.

Well, family to me is very important. I would never let them down. It is now and forever. We were questioned on why we did not give respect. All what I need to know is why Didn't we get it in the First Place? When he started it, you name the act as it’s his character. When we Defend our decision, you name us RUDE. I don’t think I OWE ANYONE AN APOLOGY!

I want you to know, deep down I want strong family bonds and ever lasting. I just wish u feel the same way. We still care for you.